Saturday, June 28, 2008

I know you don't mean to be, mean to me.
'cause when you want to, you can make me feel like we belong.
lately you make me feel, all i am is a back up plan.
I say I'm done, and then you smile at me and I forget everything I said.
I'll buy into those eyes, and into your lies.
you say you'll call, but I know you.
you say you'll come home, but I know you.
you say you'll call, but I know you won't.
I wish you were where you're supposed to be, close to me.
but here I am, just staring at this candle burning down.
still no sounstd, your footeps on my stairs, your voice anywhere.
I know you, I know you won't.

it was two weeks after the day she turned 18.
all dressed in white, going to the church that night.
she had his box of letters in the passenger seat.
six pins and his shoes, something borrowed, something blue.
and when the church doors opened up wide
she put her veil down trying to hide the tears.
oh, she just couldn't believe it.
she heard the trumpets from the military band.
and took the flowers out of her hands.
baby, why'd you have to leave me, why'd you have to go.
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know.
I can't even breathe, it's like I'm looking from a distance.
standing in the background, everybody's saying,
he's not coming home now. this can't be happening to me.
this is just a dream. the preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray.
lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt.
then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song.
that she ever heard, then they handed her a folded up flag.
and she held on to all she had left of him,
and what could've been, and the guns rang one last shot.
and it felt like a bullet in her heart.
oh this has to be, just a dream.


I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall.
and I've been laying here, praying she won't call.
it's just another call from home, you'll get and be gone.
and I'll be crying, and I'll be begging you baby.
beg you not to leave, but I'll be left here waiting
with my heart on my sleeve. oh for the next time we'll be here,
seems like a million years, and I think I'm dieing.
what do I have to do, to make you see, she can't love you like me.
why don't you stay, I'm down on my knees.
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need.
when she calls, you to go, there is one thing you should know.
we don't have to live this way, baby why don't you stay.
you keep telling me baby, there will come a time.
when you will leave her arms and forever be in mine.
but I don't think that's the truth, and I don't like being used.
and I'm tired of waiting. it's too much pain to have to bear.
to love a man you have to share. why don't you stay.
I'm down on my knees, I'm so tired of being lonely.
don't I give you what you need. when she calls, you to go.
there is one thing you should know, we don't have to live this way.
baby, why don't you stay. I can't take it any longer.
but my will is getting stronger, and I think I know just what I have to do.
I can't waste another minute, after all that I've put in it.
I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?
so next time you find, you want to leave her bed for mine.
why don't you stay, I'm up off my knees.
I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need.
when she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should.
I don't have to live this way, baby why don't you stay.


if i could turn back the hands of time and do it all over i would.
instead of everything being all bad, maybe everything would be all good.

the funny thing is,
nobody really knows how much anybody else is hurting.
we could be standing next to somebody, completely broken.
and we wouldn't even know.

the important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments.
learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won't be sunny
and when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair,
remember it's only in the black of night that you see the stars,
and those stars lead you back home.
so don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall,
because most of the time the greatest rewards
come from doing things that scare you the most.
maybe you'll get everything you wish for.
maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined.
who knows where life will take you.


tries to laugh when she feels like crying.
nobody'd blame her if she stopped trying.
but she's got a heart that gives and gives.
so you tell me, who the strong one is.

i still love the way your eyes look in mine
and it's too bad we can't feel this way all the time.
'cause the breath between our lips when we kiss
is something i hope i never have to miss.

sometimes you only forgive someone
because you can't stand not having them in your life.

i know the timing isn't great, but these things you just can't plan.
i just need a little time so i can find myself again,
because i get buried underneath all the things they think you are,
and i'm too tired to pretend it doesn't hurt anymore.

done a whole lotta giving, and not enough take.
but, you can only be strong for so long before you break.


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if you only get to go around one time.
i'm gonna sit back and try to enjoy the ride.

i'm seeing the road that i've travelled.
a road paved with heartaches and tears.
and i'm seeing the past that i've wasted.
watching the bubbles in my beer.
visions of someone who loved me.

whiskey river take my mind.
don't let his memory torture me.
whiskey river don't run dry.
you're all i've got, take care of me.

girls with boobs like me.
don't talk to boys with faces like yours.

she's a good hearted woman.
in love with a good timin' man.
she loves him in spite of his ways.
that she don't understand.
through teardrops and laughter.
they'll pass through this world hand in hand.
a good hearted woman, lovin' her good timin' man.

the sun is filled with ice and gives no warmth at all.
the sky was never blue.
the stars are raindrops searching for a place to fall.
and i never cared for you.

and when you said that we were through.
i've tried to find somebody new.
but i found out that wouldn't do.
because i'd rather be alone than with someone new.
it's all your fault when i'm a grandma.
if my grandkids don't call you grandpa.
well i'll just tell 'em it's all your fault.

cowboys ain't easy to love and they're harder to hold.
and they'd rather give you a song then diamonds or gold.
lonestar belt buckles and old faces levi's each night begins a new day.
and if you don't understand him and he don't die young.
he'll probably just ride away.
mama's don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys.
don't let 'em pick guitars and drive them old trucks.
make 'em be doctors and lawyers and such.
mama's don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys.
they'll never stay home and they're always alone.
even with someone they love.

if you've got the money honey i've got the time.
we'll go honky tonkin' and we'll have a time.
bring along your cadillac, leave my ol' wreck behind.
if you've got the money honey i've got the time.

other arms reach out to me, other eyes smile tenderly.
still in peaceful dreams i see, the road leads back to you.
georgia, georgia, no peace i find.
just an old sweet song keeps georgia on my mind.

i want to soak up life for awhile.
in laid back mode.