if i don't say this now i will surely break
as i'm leaving the one i want to take
forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
my heart has started to separate
and sometimes i just get so god damn sick of myself
that the only thing to do
is leave as much of my stomache as i can in the bathroom.
when the wind blows west
is when i will talk to you
when you're put to rest
i won't cry for you
i have laughed up galaxies, hats and glasses,
but i've never met anyone quite like you.
i've met vintage people - who boast of shipwrecks and bravery,
but i've never met someone quite like you.
we look forward to the time when the power of love
will replace the love of power.
then our world will know the blessings of peace.
how dare you say it's nothing to me?
baby, you're the only light i ever saw
and when i look at you,
i wonder what it is about you
that makes me love you like i do.
and i swear, i'll know your face in the crowd.
and i'll hear your voice so loud when you're whispering
you're beautiful
every little piece, love, don't you know?
you're really gonna be someone, ask anyone.
when you find everything you've looked for,
i hope your life leads you back to my door..
oh but if it don't, stay beautiful.
they will thank me,
and wish me the sky,
as i turn them to angels,
they grow wings to fly.
some days the sun shines brighter,
and the whistle of the wind in the trees is louder.
the grass is longer and more lush, and on those days,
i dream that you love me back
and what did i do that you can't seem to want me?
and why do we lie here and whisper goodbyes?
where can i go that your pictures won't haunt me?
what makes it so easy for you to be walking by?
i won't begin to ask why you're leaving.
why you did those things you did.
why you said those things you said.
I will whisper a song in your ear
Of the things you've been missing my dear
If you remember the tune
It's all I can do
Just remember I wrote it for you
Please don't let this turn into something it's not,
I can only give you everything I've got.
I can't be as sorry as you think I should.
But I still love you more than anyone could.
we laughed in the living room, where we forgot to live. and that night we drank ourselves to sleep. i asked why and you said "life's not so bad when it's all a blur & nothing really matters."
the cigarette ash flies in your eyes
and you don't mind
you smile and say the world doesn't fit with you.
i don't believe you,
you're so serene.
careening through the universe
your axis on a tilt
you're guiltless and free,
i hope you take a piece of me with you.
It's such a perfect fit
When I am wearing it
Sad minion of mine
Don't be so unkind
I know I stole your coat
You can have this song I wrote
the only thing i haven't done yet is die
I’d drive my car off of a bridge
If I knew that you weren’t inside
you say you're looking for happiness but when it comes, you run away from it you tell yourself you don't deserve it there's not much more that i can do now, the rest is up to you until you love yourself, you'll never change you'll keep on running until you deal with today
blame it on the weather
but i'm a mess.
and this February darkness,
has me hating everyone.
and i know i need your comfort,
but this drama makes me sick
and the longer i lay here,
i know it's harder to get up without you
i might watch TV,
cause it's nice to see
people more messed up than me.
hold me now i need to feel complete
like i matter to the one i need
i'm tired of the way it feels
i only apologize to you to make you feel better
i'd rather be alone
you're about as reliable as paper shoes in bad weather
youth is happy because it has the ability to see beauty
anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty
will never grow old.
start with what is right
rather than what is acceptable.
you can compliment me on the style of my hair.
give me marks out of ten for the clothes i wear.
you probably thought i had more upstairs.
i disappoint you, i can see through your perfect smile.
you turned the heads of every boy and girl alike
would you have them all if there were enough hours in the night?
i don't like your fashion business, mister
and i don't like these pills that keep you thin
i don't like what happened to my sister
sometimes i sleep
and sometimes it's not for days
the people i meet always go their separate ways
sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink
and sometimes when you're alone,
all you do is think
no one else can fix me
although sometimes my heart tricks me
into thinking someone else will do.
there is no need to point the finger there's no one left to blame recognize that sometimes, it is your fault
what about the things we had, what about the things you said, what about the way you look laying in my bed
'cause what good is seeing if love's not looking back at you? and what good is feeling if my hands aren't touching you?
you look so good in the shoes of an outcast,
i kissed your throat every time they said it wouldn't last
but then i knew you, i knew you, i knew you
i really knew you
they're drunk on love as you can get.
getting high on lust and cigarettes,
living life with no regrets.
at least they're gonna try to fly.
i don't like being this weak.
feeling this vulnerable.
crying tears that don't need to be shed.
letting you have complete and utter control over me.
but i can't help it.
i'm just in love with you.
you say too late to start,
got your heart in a headlock
i don't believe any of it.
you say too late to start,
with your heart in a headlock
you know you're better than this
there's one thing i want to say, so i'll be brave you were what i wanted i gave what i gave i'm not sorry i met you i'm not sorry it's over i'm not sorry there's nothing to save
i really hope you change things this time. don't feed me that line. i'm waiting for something that you'll never give. never again.
months went by with us pretending when did our light turn from green to red? i took a chance and left you standing lost the will to do this once again
each night, it ends too soon;
you don't hold me like you used to.
and your eyes look like they've seen too much,
because it's always some excuse;
this time i fear i'm losing you.
the girls want to be skinnier, prettier, and cooler. but baby they're not healthy, one drink and they're down.
love is supposed to be this bad.
make you cry mega-ultra sad.
if i told you you're all i ever had
would you walk on me?
because i wouldn't walk on you.
we belong to the light
we belong to the thunder
we belong to the sound of the words
we've both fallen under
i used to make my parents proud. i was the glue that kept my friends together, now they don't talk and we don't go out. i used to know the name of every person i kissed. now i made this bed and i can't fall asleep in it.
and if the earth stopped spinning tomorrow
i'm pretty sure that you'd blame it all on me
and tell me i'm the reason that we're all going to hell
and then try to save the world all by yourself
seasons are changing,
and waves are crashing,
and the stars are falling, all for us.
days grow longer and nights grow shorter.
i can show you i'll be the one.
i know i don't tell you nearly enough
but i couldn't live one day without your love
i lived in a world where love was never true.
i lived in a world of lies and booze.
i lived in a world where i had a blurry view.
but then there was you.
cast a spell on the country you run
and risk all their lives and their souls
and you will burn in hell for your sins
oh, our freedom's consuming itself
what we've become is contray to what we want
take a bow.
i just want to hold you in my arms
you electrify my life,
let's ignite all the souls
that would die just to feel alive
come ride with me through the veins of history
i'll show you a god who sleeps on the job
how can we win when fools can be kings?
we all choke ourselves with our own ignorance.
there is so much more to life than your stupid desires
and these children that you spit on,
as they try to change their worlds
are immune to your consultations.
they're quite aware of what they're going through.
i remember feeling like a ship
whose captain was too drunk to steer
and you watched as i was sinking
waving sadly from the pier.
what makes the one to shake you down?
each touch belongs to each new sound.
say now you want to shake me too
move down to me, slip into you
love, and some verses you hear say what you can't say love, to say this in your ear, "I'll love you that way" from your changing contentments, what will you choose for to share? someday drawing you different, may i be weaved in your hair?
these blue eyes are so contagious.
right now, i feel like moving in on you.
i'm restless are you restless?
i know it's not my place to tell you what you're doing wrong, sometimes i think about your face and there's times that i don't think of you at all
i think i've seen every star in the sky tonight
removed from the city lights,
has never seemed so bright
i know i shouldn't believe a word you say.
i do anyway, cause i'm dumb like that.
sweetness, sweetness, i was only joking when i said i'd like to smash every tooth in your head sweetness, sweetness, i was only joking when i said by rights you should be bludgeoned in your bed.
the only way to keep your health is to
eat what you don't want,
drink what you don't like,
and do what you'd rather not.
put your hands on me my love
while the world wakes up early and wastes the day
working for money they dont need, to buy things they dont need
we'll sleep in, we'll do it again.
I hate this fucking town.
And I think we're running out of alcohol.
Complacency is lost for now
But I'll never doubt you
Cause all I do is wonder how
I could be without you
three cigarettes deeper and deeper.
i've been drinking more and eating less,
i'm a mess without you laying here.
one last hit for you,
two pills here for me.
one too many times
i've felt this way about you.
Ever get the feeling
ideals can't take us where we need to go?
Sometimes I'd like to just maybe squash your head,
but next time that I see you I'll just probably smile
and say, "hello".
i wanna run with reckless emotion,
find out if love is the size of the ocean.
and even if i crash and burn, at least
i know what it feels like to be alive.
I need to feel your warm body on me when the sun goes down & the shadows grow. Just trust in us & forever know Please keep holding on to me
i know it’s true to say my smiles been weak.
i wonder if you know by now i’ve fallen deep.
i can hear you calling to me in the morning.
how can i be falling in love with you?
"these damned heights get eerie after a while.
i want to go down, way down; far, far down.
to the ocean.
that sounds right.
where the waves roll in slowly and there's always a roar
and you can't fall anywhere.
you're already there."
oh, i was cold
and though i must have looked half a person,
to tell the tale, in my own version,
it was only then that i felt whole
sick to death of my dependence,
fighting food to find transcendence
fighting to survive,
more dead but more alive
cigarettes and speed to live,
and sleeping pills to feel forgiven
all that you contrive,
and all that you're deprived
all the bourgeois social angels
telling you you've got to change
don't have any idea.
they'll never see so clear.
but don't forget what it really means to hunger strike
when you don't really need to
some are dying for a cause,
but that don't make it yours.
on a different day, if i was safe in my own skin
then i wouldn't feel lost and so frightened.
but this is today and i'm lost in my own skin
and i'm so lonely
i don't even want to be with myself anymore
and if i could reverse it i don't think it would be worth it i know in my heart i would never let you tumble to the ground. no, i'll never let you go i will never let you tumble to the ground
you fell down the stairs into my arms
and swiftly ran the other way
and i heard the steady swell of applause
for two drunk kids trying to figure out which way was home
they got lost as they were taking off each other's clothes
oh life, it was so wonderful it would shine just like fire how we sat on the backs of our cars and laughed into the morning i thought you'd come and go i never thought you would stay and i'm sorry if i tried to push you away
we will sing pretty songs about love
and we will fight if that's what it takes
and we won't back down.
no we won't shut our eyes and go to sleep
we will write all over your walls
and we will dance to no music at all
we will do what it takes to get through to you
in your tears and
in your blood, in your fire and
in your flood,
i hear you laugh,
i heard you sing,
"i wouldn't change a single thing."
i've been dropped out,
burned up,
fought my way back from the dead.
tuned in, turned on,
remembered the things that you said
i decided to steal the sun from the sky.
long live the day i decided to fly
and all the while it's hard to speak,
i often don't know what to say.
i've never been in love this way.
the brave may not live forever
but the cautious do not live at all.
skeleton thin,
his arms covered in needle holes.
blood and bruises stained.
solitude in empty eyes.
inside nothing remained.
existence left in shame.
what a waste of creation.
ruined by heroin mutilation.
it's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
i chose to feel it
and you, couldn't choose
i'll write you a postcard,
i'll send you the news
from the house down the road,
from real love
well i don't know where i'll go now
and i don't really care who follows me there
but i'll burn every bridge that i cross
and find some beautiful place to get lost
this alcohol is of my disease
i'm clutching a bottle that can't be released
it's got me crippled,
twisted,
down on my knees
what do you feel before you think?
what do you see before you blink?
who do you battle in your dreams?
who strokes your feathers 'till you scream?
its 3:15am and your in her bed thinking about how you fucked up you know i'll find out, so stop worrying you just lost all you ever had.
you see people on the street corner,
begging for food.
you think you are so superior
'cus you have more money
but honey, let me tell you,
these people have more soul than you ever will
and in the end, that's gonna matter more.
what we know of other people
is only our memory of the moments
during which we knew them.
they have changed since then...
at every meeting we are meeting a stranger.
i braved the trecherous streets
and the kids strung out on homemade speed.
we shared a bed in which i could not sleep.
before you learn how to walk
before you learn how to rock
you learn to rollerskate
its impossible to win a superficial war
you see their shadows wandering off somewhere,
they won't make it home
and they really don't care
hate to advocate
drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity
to anyone,
but they’ve always worked for me.
and it's sad, but true.
out of cash and IOU's.
and it comes down to you.
cut through the black empty space we call sky
beginning the cycle that stays
and i know in my heart we all die
"I guarantee you it's not the stoned kids that are shooting everyone. They don't have time to, like, buy ammo. A little bit too busy looking up the Domino's number in the phone book for, like, the fiftieth time."
and it's days like this when the sun is shining and all i can think of is your face. and the place i once loved is the place i hate. and i can't get you out of my head. and all i can think of that night when i would have given up the world for you. and that same night i watched you walk away
seasons are changing
and waves are crashing
and stars are falling
all for us
and some people just don't know
what they have at first.
like me and you
and some things were just made
to be done more than once
like us
everybody just wants to get high,
sit and watch a perfect world go by.
we're all looking for love and
meaning in our lives.
we follow the roads that lead us
to drugs or Jesus.
i want to sleep with you
in the desert tonight
with a billion stars all around
'cause i got a peaceful easy feeling
and i know you won't let me down
some don't need anything but i end up here
searching for comfort for this burnout i can't soothe
i'm chasing my whiskey with you
this time i'm gone for good
and i've never gone this far before
beyond the slamming of the back screen door
but you never loved me like you should
practice random beauty and senseless acts of love.
i've been a long time coming
and i'll be a long time gone
you've got your whole life to do something
and that's not very long
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
and i hope you will never feel unwanted
i told myself i wouldn't miss you but i remember what it feels like beside you
and she turned and said,
“it’s times like these that i wish i was a believer,
so i could do something to give me hope.
something to make me believe in anything at all.”
remember me when youre out walkin
when the snow falls high outside your door
late at night when youre not sleepin
and moonlight falls across your floor
when i cant hurt you anymore
i want to rub between your thighs,
and blow kisses right between your eyes.
maybe that’s just your way of dealing with the pain,
forgetting everything
between our rise and fall
like we never loved at all.
when i get where i'm going
on the far side of the sky
the first thing that i'm gonna do
is spread my wings and fly
i hate myself more than i ever let on.
i'm burned out at 16
i lived too fast
and i loved too much
and i'll die too young.
but i choose this cup that i drank from.
too tired to fall asleep
too dumb to keep your clothes on
too cynical to speak
is there any wonder why bother?
your thoughts are like the kiss of an h-bomb.
it's how i love the feeling of sex and desperation
i dreamt of your body late last night
electricity poured from my throat
now we are starting to love you more
your body's on the canvas i painted on the floor.
hey kid, this is far too important
for you to ever understand.
she says, "be a man",
you know this is what we both wanted.
it's time for us to let go of all we've known.
so let's drive through the night
put your hands on my heart
spray paint verses on a cold blue wall
write out names in the burning sand
catch cold snowflakes in our hands
in vain, i blame my trembling on the cold air
but i can't hide that i relied on you.
then you tell me with a whisper
of things that will never be.
do you hear me breathing?
does it make you want to scream?
you turned out to be more than i bargained for
and i can tell that we both just need to get away
forgive me, if i admit, that i'd love to love you
but i'm afraid we'll both realize it when it gets too late.
i think it's safe to say you were right.
come back to your place?
yeah, i think i just might.
would you forgive me, love, if i danced in your shower?
would you forgive me, love, if i layed in your bed?
would you forgive me, love, if i stayed all afternoon?
the only thing that is perfect
are all those states we put in between us.
because you know i'm always writing you post cards
just saying how good it feels to not have you here.
forget dry land,
i’d rather stand in the ocean
and let the waves of devotion roll over me,
irony, i had to suffocate before i could breathe
now i’m in a head space i’ve never been before
ever since my feet hit the shore
i tell you it feels good so give me some more
one time you proclaimed in bed,
"my dear, you're lost." and i believed.
but i can't pretend it's fine anymore.
from the liquor store to the train stop floor. your filthy room, your drama blues. i'm nothing if i'm not with you.
fill up the air balloon and ride with me
yeah, hell is jealous of the rain
make love like time and space is ending
while befriending fate's alluring way of putting this to shame
its kinda like one of those i dont care where we are as long as your fingers are in my hair as long as my hands have undone your zipper as long as the doors have been locked as long as there is no one else around. if i am with you i am happy; as long our lips aren't lonely as long as our breaths are still gasping as long as were doing what we do best.
i need you like i need that cancer stick after crying all damn day.
you are my hero just like what our son would say.
too bad it didnt work out ya know
too bad i really meant it when i said just go.
it really is a shame you fucked me over
but i guess you can say you fucked her too.
i watch the sun go down over the ocean tide the wind is blowing from the shore through my hair it's beautiful tonight oh, i can't explain, but i want to feel like a butterfly, as free. i want to be as open as the sea
in a show of hands who has said these exact words? in a show of hearts on the floor who has ever meant them more?
the smell of hospitals in winter
and the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters but no pearls
all at once you look across a crowded room
to see the way that light attaches to a girl
i pledge allegiance to the flag
of the United States of Hypocricy
and to the Republic for which it stands
one nation, ruled by liars, with libery
and justice for the wealthy.
it's funny how you called me tonight.
and yes, i miss you too.
(i can not explain how good this is. and how ironic it was when he called me...)
i’m sharing a drink with a memory, and a laugh with an empty seat. do you still look the same? cause i know that i don't.
you were the first thing i thought of when i thought i drank you off my mind.
i want to drink more beer until i puke,
drink drank punk, im so cool.
i can drink so much,
i can drink more than you.
sit back New York City,
you're not cute,
but you're oh-so-pretty.
when the rain comes down,
you fall up again.
sunny, you are a part of me.
sunny, you are the heart of me.
and if i could see the world in different colors,
i'd read it in the air as signals send them through.
but everyone is just a different shade of you.
you got a problem with your heart
follow the line down your left arm
if there's no money in your left hand
you could be pulled apart
you think it's more than just a cold?
did you know how you would move me well?
i don't really think so
but the night came down and swept us away
and the stars,
they seemed
to paint the most elaborate scene to date.
you know the lies they always told you
and the love you never knew
what's the thing they never showed you
that swallow the light from the sun inside your room.
the voice says: "maybe you dont go to hell for the things you do. maybe you go to hell for the things you don't do. the things you dont finish"
nothing of me is original.
i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.
the sunlight shimmered in her hair
the wind whispered in the air
she looked around here and there
maybe it was love
constantly, we dance in sheets,
it feels so right to be so wrong
normal love set aside,
leave your heart at the bedside
i can't sleep tonight, smell of cigarettes on your sheets. why won't you just get the hell out of my dreams?
and i will sing my song for you until you look me in the face, press your lips against my own so i know just the way you taste. and i will sing my song for you until the bombs wipe out the clouds, i will stand against the ruins and i will scream your name out loud.
and could you be the one that's not afraid
to look me in the eyes
i swear i would collapse
if i would tell how
i think you fell from the sky
and i miss you.
i know your standing up for our country but theres others for that arent there?
i understand that your doing what you think is right.
but i miss you.
your standing in front of a boy half your age,
with a rifle in hand.
its not fair that you beat him to it.
its not fair that his family loves him too.
god do i miss you.
just come back home from overseas.
we really do need you more.
please just flee.
i had a dream about you last night
and i was hysterical because you were leaving again.
but then when i woke up i thanked god
because that meant you were still alive.
so then maybe you'll come see me one day.
maybe we can dance like we used to.
you can show off your uniform.
i'll pretend your real cool.
be my hero instead of theirs.
be here for me and let me cuddle in your arms.
dont leave me left to pray.
boy i miss you.
and some days make me
feel weak and shaky
some fly right right by me
like a paper aeroplane
and i hardly notice
that the world's gone crazy
but nothings clearer
than the way you said my name
and it's beginning to get to me
that i know more of the stars and sea
than i do of what's in your head
barely touching in our cold bed
look for nirvana under the strobe lights
sequins and sex dreams.
you whisper to me,
'there's no reason to cry.'
saw your face the other day.
and i'd wished i'd had the guts enough to say,
"wish you could spend the night
and it would be like old times."
i never loved the soldier
until there was war,
or thought about tomorrow
'til my baby hit the floor.
i only talk to God when
somebody's about to die,
i never cherished freedom,
but freedom never cries.
when you're kissing someone who's too much like you it's like kissing on the mirror when you're sleeping with someone who doesn't get you you're going to hate yourself in the morning
cry about them all not taking you seriously, girl.
but what do you expect.
the only thing your good for
is showing off and sex.
your nothing to anyone but you want it this way.
with your mini skirt and the thing you did last may.
"so i heard"..was all we heard
and i believe everything because when i put it all together
your still absolutely nothing.
too late you cant go back.
and even if you cared enough to try you'd walk past a car
with another good looking guy
and mess up everything you just tried.
it isnt easy but you are
and we'd get drunk and kiss
our bodies twist like shoe laces
and we never came untied.
i guess you were just my type.
and a princess, i will never be.
my fingernails are chipped,
my mind is dirty.
everything about me just screams
"I am the anti-debutante."
and i'm the child of a common man.
my room's a mess
and i can't get dressed.
i gotta be out by eight o'clock.
deep inside i know the answer.
well there's no time like the present
and i'd like to hang out but who doesn't.
i've made enough mistakes for this lifetime.
now i'm here to make amends.
and they told her “you don’t have to sell yourself like that” and the only thing she could reply was, “Im not that smart. I am that pretty.”
dont act shocked when you see me walking down your street holding 5 dollars and old letters flowers and a box of pictures a cigarette in one hand, only because im lonely. dont be suprised if you see me laying on your bedroom floor, my pants left in the other room and me screaming for more. dont act confused when i try to forget and i dont remember to call. it was all a set up after all. dont be sad if i sit in your car and play that old song that was playing the night we went pretty far. dont be shy when i call you next july with a baby on the way and a tear in my eye. dont act all stunned. you knew from the start that this we going to be weird and love is just hard.
okay, alright,
so what, i’m wrong.
i slept around.
you held me close
and he did to.
and the three other boys that left just like you.
they say we look better honey.
so tell me to feel okay even though we both know
i’m still not good enough.
you sit here and watch me smile
but later my reflection wont give the same impression.
and they say im weak but they don’t know how brave i have to be to do this.
face down and folded up tears aren’t the only thing falling.
the same taste shows up again tonight but its worth it
when i feel your hips crashing against mine.
once again i’ll be the foolish one
thinking a blink of these lashes would make you come
all this feels strange and untrue
and i won't waste a minute without you
talk to the wind,
talk to the sky.
talk to the man
with the reasons why.
and let me know
what you find.
i've watched you so long
screamed your name
i don't know what else i can say
the sky glows
i see it shining with my eyes closed
i kind of like it when you sway.
i wish you saw how great you were
i wish you saw what life was worth
i read a book,
and there was a boy like you.
it didn't work out.
and that,
that scares me.
and you broke me like the cigarette that i busted on the day i quit.
but now that i've been drinking,
i'm outta smokes and i wish i had it.
woke up to my daily headache
and the realization that you are gone.
oh my sweet darling happiness,
you've been away from me all along.
as she crouched on all fours
trying to cast out all that she lacked
into the white porcelain bowl,
he held back her hair and
he whispered into her ear,
"you're better than this."
and you check labels more than the FCC.
and these calories are, are killing me.
this is a sticky situation,
so keep your chest in the game.
your melodic words don't mean a thing
and the way you speak
makes things seem like sin
how can i still love you?
teenage love songs, there isn't such a thing. cause fucking is just fucking, when you're only sixteen.
i got a face thats made for violence and porn.
and im a teen distortion,
survived abortion.
a rebel from the waist down.
my old man always swore
that hell would have no flame.
just a front row seat
to watch your true love pack her things
and drive away.
this is going to break me clean in two,
this is going to bring me close to you
you break my heart each time
you slip your hands inside my pockets
tell me nothing else would do
without me,
you can't live
let’s get out of this country.
i’ll admit i am bored with me.
i drowned my sorrows
and slept around.
when not in body at least in mind.
we’ll find a cathedral city,
you can convince me i am pretty.
you're standing at the door
i'm falling to the floor
you look even better than you did before
i'm staring at my feet
wondering if i can do this
it's been a while but i couldn't forget you
so, since you wanna be with me
you'll have to follow through
with every word you say.
and i, all i really want is you,
for you to stick around.
you could have been anyone,
it wouldn't matter.
we still would have wound up together
its not really sex.
and its not really drugs.
its the people in this society,
that are the source of the problems in this world.
breathe it in
and breathe it out,
and pass it on,
it's almost out.
we're so creative,
so much more.
we're high above,
but on the floor.
it's not a habit,
it's cool,
i feel alive.
if you don't have it,
you're on the other side
the deeper you stick it in your vein,
the deeper the thoughts,
there's no more pain.
i'm in heaven,
i'm a god.
i'm everywhere,
i feel so hot.
i'm not an addict.
maybe that's a lie.
the storm clouds dissolved into thin air.
like when my hands got lost in your thick hair.
the dogs barked long days, not dark.
the sky's blue
so what should we do?
captured a taxi despite all the rain we drove in silence across point champlain and all of the time you thought i was sad i was trying to remember your name.
we'll do nothing
but drink hot tea
and hold hands
it will mean so much
to us both.
you sent me a card saying,
i wish you were here.
i sent you one back saying,
i wish you'd dissapear
and she said to me,
"you remind me of Rod Stewart when he was young.
you've got a whole lot of passion.
you think you're sexy,
and all the punks think you're dumb."
cause what i feel is so sweet
and i'm scared that even
my own breath could burst it
i saw him at the riverbank,
he was breaking bread and giving thanks,
with crosses made of pipes and planks.
leaned up against the nitrous tanks,
he said, "take a hit, hold your breath,
and i'll dunk your head.
then when you wake up again,
you'll be high as hell and
born again."
don't give me choices cause i can't decide
my mind is soaked in words
i've come to terms with all my insecurities
and purity's no friend of mine
well it takes all of my strength to be stable
and i force your insults under the table
and if you were wise, you would compromise
and allow me to live my way
and i will sing my song for you
until you look me in the face,
press your lips against my own
so i know just the way you taste.
and i will sing my song for you
until the bombs wipe out the clouds,
i will stand against the ruins
and i will scream your name out loud.
i bruise like a peach
i mumble when i speak
i'm in the gutter
lookin' at the stars
i've always been in love with you.
well every day gets worse.
locked in a vice, my thoughts perverse.
you must wonder why i look at you that way..
tonight i'll make my way into your house.
i must, im lusting for your body.
i wanna fall at a million miles an hour
with people and little picture radios
and i'm smiling but
i'm trying hard not to smile at all
and i crave for the little conversation
and the way you toss your hair back,
you're beautiful
and it suits me fine
don't say goodbye like you're burying him
cause the world is round and he might return
but if he loves me then why does he leave
throwing up medications.
pinch the skin and suck it in.
they say we look better boney
let me tell you about hard work, minimum wage with a baby on the way. let me tell you about hardwork, rebuilding your house after the bombs took it away. let me tell you about hardwork, building a bed out of a cardboard box. let me tell you, Mr. President, you dont know a thing about hard work.
i'd do anything to make you smile,
holding you till our time is done.
we both know the day will come,
but i don't want to leave you
i wonder if the sun has risen where you are.
it's morning time,
i miss your hands on my skin
this bed's too big without you in it
concerning the moonlight as it dances across your neck.
i'm out of practice.
and your kisses taste of peace.
lately i've overheard you complaining
on the phone to your mother
and the only reason i mention it now
is the book on your night table
you live in the world of suits and ties now,
Wallstreet Journal and New York Times.
stock markets and success and other things
i, quite frankly, just don't understand.
Staten Island princess,
so pretty in pearls.
drop it down make it an uptown affair.
you got the money
and i got the drugs.
you're pretty pretty for a white girl
our Friday nights consist of bowling
and gathering in empty parking lots.
were not part of the Hollywood scene.
We don't own designer jeans
Or do designer drugs.
we smoke Basics and get drunk on Bud.
we're just small town kids,
living life, and dreaming big
so now you're headed to your car,
you say its dinner with your sister, sweetie.
but darling, look how you're dressed.
your best suggests another kind of guest.
i saw you sliding out the bar,
i saw you slipping out the back door baby.
dont even try and find a line this time,
its fine.
darling, you're still divine.
and you're so guilty it's disgusting
he's been sneakin underneath your sheets
and your hand have been in places
that they probably shouldn't go
but don't worry sweetie
cause i already know
taking chances on the rooftops of your hometown,
you're so cute when your feet make love to the ground.
and you've got such lovely blue eyes.
can't forget about the stars
and your night skies.
it’s not for tomorrow or for yesterday,
it’s for now,
'cause now is so fucking beautiful
so the world is spinning faster.
are you dizzy when you're stoned?
let the music be your master
said there ain't no use in crying.
cause it will only drive you mad.
does it hurt to hear them lying?
was this the only world you had?
spend my nights dead,
face down on my floor
but the drugs aren't really working anymore.
the nights are mostly just depressed
from staring at my open chest.
we're the definition of
Rock and Roll.
i drink more than you,
yeah, i party harder than you do.
and my car's a hell of
alot faster than yours too.
she's got a lip ring
and 5 colors in her hair,
not into fashion but damn,
i love the clothes she wears.
her tattoo is always hidden
by her underwear.
and in all honesty
she just don't care.
south pacific's whiskey and sin,
now honey, i must warn you,
these angels got me talking again.
i get my whiskey from a well,
except on holidays when its on the top shelf.
but tonight i dont mind if you spend a little more
because you are a tolerant woman
and the world is at war.
do the whirlwind,
and carry the hope that stings all night long
don't abandon him
cause he quivers when he hears your song
singers smoke it
players of instrument, too
legalize it, yeah, yeah
that's the best thing you can do
these are the days i won't get back
i won't hear you cry or hear you laugh
but when it's quiet and i don't hear a thing
well i can always hear you sing
it was beautiful the way we held our hands the leaves did fall while we stumbled and crawled to find each other
Please remember this:
yes, you are small
but you're all irreplacable
and are invaluable
and miraculous.
those stars don't have anything on you
it didn't mean much to you,
it just felt good to be doin’ it.
i can only imagine what the First lady has to say.
"sir you've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine."
and when im about to fall somehow you're waiting with open arms to catch me
this ten a.m. cup of coffee has me feeling so sophisticated.
and well, it almost makes me feel
like i don't need you
and if i don't make it,
know that i've loved you all along.
just like sunny days that we ignore
because we're all dumb and jaded.
i awake to the burning dawn
spilled across my floor,
the scent of cheap whiskey
and brokenness in the air.
i'm not surprised
when i find that you aren't here
because that's your style for sure.
giving only a teased taste.
when my heart is sickly thin
from starving for more
please don't let this turn into something it's not.
i can only give you everything i've got.
i can't be as sorry as you think i should,
but i still love you more than anyone else could.
i was afraid to tell you some things,
but some things all find a way to get told.
hearing it from the lips of somebody else
must have knocked the wind out of your sweet chest.
we'll have our way,
and i'm holding your hand,
thinking about the words to say.
i'm thinking about the hands you'll meet,
and the people you'll shake
along the way.
you could be happy.
i hope you are.
you made me happier
than i'd been by far.
we're burning down the highway skyline
on the back of a hurricane,
that started turning when we were young
and he doesnt look like Jesus,
but he talks like a gentleman,
like you imagined
when you were young.
when you run from something it only stays with you longer. when you fight something, it only makes it stronger.
and there's been a few times
that we thought it felt right
to take all the westbound signs
and just leave town tonight
i'd paint your hair crimson red, and your eyes blue instead. if i could, i'd draw a heart for you, fix it in between the essence of my hands, illuminate the arteries until you understand.
and so i drink to stay warm and to kill selected memories because i just can't think anymore about that or about him tonight
rain loves the flowers for a drop at a time
when they collide
petals love the dirt and make them strong
when flowers die
dirt tries to love everything
but it's only dirt.
just because it hurts
don't mean that it's love
i'm walking out between parked cars
with my head full of stars,
high on amphetamines.
the moon is a light bulb breaking.
it'll go around with anyone,
but it won't come down for anyone.
i’ve seen love die, way too many times. when it deserved to be alive
i'll take my heart back
and set the people free
ill leave the dead to die
and take what's coming with me.
you see it's never been bad enough,
to just leave or give up
but it's never good enough to feel right
will you tell me what you saw?
and ill tell you what you missed
when the ocean met the sky.
you missed when time and life
shook hands
and said goodbye
when the earth folded in on itself and said
"good luck, for your sake i hope heaven and hell
are really there
but i wouldn't hold my breath."
but now we speak with ruined tongues
and the words we say aren't meant for anyone
it's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
but there was once you
the air grows cold.
autumn's not the same without you
i think i need a new town,
to leave this all behind
i think i need a sunrise,
i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer,
some snow would be nice..
boston, where no one knows my name..
we fell apart in the parties of the empty heart
we danced the junkie in the shadows of bad modern art
we clicked our heels and we wished we were home
i’m the one that has to die
when it's time for me to die,
so let me live my life the way I want to.
i decided to steal the sun from the sky
long live the day
i decided to fly
looking for downers and coke.
like a sun that just wouldnt set
out on the horizon
it's the smoke and the drinks;
and the smiles that it brings;
it's the fun meaning sex
its mind altering
shredded by state lines
press my face up against the glass
with both eyelids shut and
baby, this won't get any easier
to this world im unimportant.
just because I have nothing to give.
so you call this your free country?
tell me why it costs so much to live?
the only thing i think i'll miss about this place is spending time with you and your picture perfect face. it's grace.
and i don't hate myself just the things i do
but i hope you see that i'm trying to improve.
i'm gonna clear my head.
i'm gonna drink that sun.
i'm gonna love you good and strong
while our love is good and young.
we spent weeks in her room just having sex and listening to jazz and that was the life
she's a hippie at heart;
born into a different century;
but all she really wants is for people to get along;
she'd trade the fighting for true freedom.
the whole wide world
is fearing the wrong things
the batter swings and the summer flies
as i look into my angel's eyes
a song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
something comes over me
i guess we're big
and i guess we're small
if you think about it man you know we got it all
cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
and i love you free
i love you freely
take me with you.
'cause i been good.
i stayed well dressed
and kept my big mouth shut.
and all the nights we shared...
they never went nowhere.
but they must have meant something.
and on the way you'll stop on by
and say the words
that make you cry.
like i could never mean a thing to you.
you know damn well
we'd go crazy
without each other
i remember when the days were long
and the nights when the living room was on the lawn.
constant quarreling the childish fits
and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman.
i've put you down
i've talked you up
defended your honor
and packed it in and picked it up
and all you can do
is just watch me go
i just want some one to say to me
”i'll always be there when you wake”
ya know
i'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
so stay with me
and i'll have it made
right now, i am turning off the lights
‘cause i don’t think that i have got the stomach to
stomach calling you today
i won't lie,
i still can't say that i admit we went too far,
and you won't see me change my mind,
but i really wish that i could forget the way you are.
look for Nirvana
under the strobe lights
sequins and sex dreams
you whisper to me
there's no reason to cry
you want to talk about pain?
let's talk about pain, motherfucker.
it's something i know everything about.
i over thought, so i locked up my heart.
yeah, and there you stood.
your blue eyes hidden beneath your hood.
i'm standing on the moon,
with nothing left to do.
with a lovely view of heaven,
but i'd much rather be with you.
the days get shorter and the nights get cold.
i like the autumn
but this place is getting old.
i pack up my belongings and i head for the coast.
it might not be a lot but
i feel like I'm making the most.
the days get longer
and the nights smell green.
i guess it's not surprising but it's spring and
i should leave.
your heart felt good it was drippin' pitch
and made of wood
and your hands and knees felt cold and wet on the grass
to me
outside naked,
shiverin' looking blue from the cold
sunlight that's reflected off the moon.
it's hard to wave goodbye from airplanes
when i just don't think that you can see
i taper off
and say "its never worth the pain"
but sometimes it is.
the earth is warm next to my ear
insects noise is all that i hear
a magic trick makes the world disappear
the skies are dark,
they're dark but they're clear
so lets drive through the night
put your hands on my heart
spray paint verses on a cold blue wall
write our names in the burning sand
watch as snowflakes melt inside our hands
our breath steamed up the window glass as we flew under the overpass we almost laughed harder than we kissed you were always something i could never resist
we made love on the living room floor
with the noise in the background of a televised war
and in the deafening pleasure i thought i heard someone say
"if we walk away, they’ll walk away"
stay awake for one more night i'll pretend that i'm okay. every one says i'll be alright but i'm dreaming of things better then you know. would it hurt for me to make it? would it hurt for me to let this go?
wait outside,
i hope the air will serve to remind you,
that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,
and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest
i've got no place in my heart for
a criminal like you to dwell in
this endeavor, make this last forever.
i'm just delirious.
you can't be serious.
you're so infamous for leaving me a mess.
too many weeds in the flowers too many pills in the pharmacy now too many bugs in the shower there's too much shit in the air we breathe
purple pills and midnight chills
and i wish you knew yourself
the way i did then
my heart is bursting in your perfect eyes
as blue as oceans and as pure as skies.
step out the front door like a ghost into the fog
where no one notices the
contrast of white on white
and in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference
between wrong and right.
and i'll sit and wonder of every
love that could've been,
if i'd only thought of something
charming to say.
flashlights under covers.
raindrops on my tongue,
when life had no distractions,
and love wasn't hurting anyone.
we'll run away together.
we'll spend some time forever.
we'll never feel bad anymore.
the amount of pills i'm taking,
counteracts the booze i'm drinking
and this vanity i'm breaking.
let me live my life like this.
nobody sees when you are lying in my bed
and i want to crawl in with you
but i cry instead
i want your warmth
but it'll only make me colder when it's over.
so i can't tonight, baby.
blame it on the weather but
i'm a mess
and this february darkness has me hating everyone
and i know i gave you comfort
but this drama makes me sick
and the longer i lay here
i know its harder to get up without you.
does she talk,
the way i do?
is her voice,
is her voice reminding you
of the promises,
the little white lies, too
sometimes, tell me,
while she's touching you
just by mistake,
accidentally,
do you say my name?
Death ends a life, not a relationship.
(i really like that one. because it can go two ways.)
i love how he breathes
booze in the morning.
it's so sexy how he can't
remember last night.
but now we speak with ruined tongues
and the words we say
aren’t meant for anyone
it’s just a mumbled sentence
to a passing acquaintance
but there was once you
there's no past tense in loving someone;
either you do,
or you never did
i could be an expert on co-dependency,
i could write the best book on underage tragedy,
i've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
i've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So i sit and wait and wonder,
"does anyone else feel like me?"
meet me in outer space
we could spend the night,
watch the earth come up.
no, you can't stay mad
at the setting sun
because we all get tired,
i mean eventually,
there is nothing to do but sleep
and oh, oh,
let me count the ways
that i adore you,
and you were never a good lay
and you were never a good friend
but, oh, oh, what else can i say...
i adore you
throw my cares up in the air,
and i don't think they're coming down.
yeah, i'm loving how it feels right now.
we can't fight gravity on a planet that insists
that love is like falling
and falling is like this.
and the sun would rise in the jasmine skies
and i'm lying awake in your bed
death is a challenge.
it tells us not to waste time,
it tells us to tell each other
right now that we love each other.
but for now we are young
let us lay in the sun
and count every beautiful thing we can see
you paint your dreams,
with reds and blues and greens.
yea you're painting daffodils by the sea
without me.
and you're talking these things through
like you know what you've been through,
but there's not a lot of reason
in the things that we believe in,
so i'll believe in you.
i asked you what its like to love, break and die all in the same breath. you said its like walking with silence in December, while a million hearts explode in your chest, but you don’t care enough to feel it.
it's no accident that the
church and the graveyard
stand side by side.
the city of the dead sleeps
encircled by the city of the living.
and i know that what we had
would not be called love
by the ones we know.
and i know it's been many years
and a hundred love-affairs ago
in honesty,
it's been a while
since we had reason left to smile
hello sunshine
come into my life
because it's not love
but it's still a feeling
no, it's not love
but my body's reeling
to move closer next to you
all my life i've been waiting for a sign to say "move on" and tonight all the salt that's in the air just feels right
wounded people are dangerous.
they know they can survive.
and the words keep repeating in my head from the night you looked at me and said 'it hurts to leave this place behind but even more so, it hurts to leave you i've never had a friend like you and i'm scared, i don't know what to do"
it's not about the destination,
it's about the journey you take
to get there.
i've been thinking everyday about you,
don't fit anywhere into my life,
but that's okay
cause i think i might be right for you
and because of that,
i'm not scared at all
i think we are perfect for each other
i'm too afraid to tell you, though
i'm pretty sure
i could love you enough for the both of us.
with just a look they shook
and heavens bowed before him.
simply a look can break your heart
i want to tell you something
so there won't be any doubt.
you're so wonderful to think of
but so hard to live without.
The struggles make me stronger, the changes make me wise, and happiness has its way of taking it's sweet time. Life ain't always beautiful, but I know that I'll be fine. Life ain't always beautiful, but it's a beautiful ride.
sometimes its best to forget what you feel
and remember what you deserve.
i can not explain to you
how well EACH and EVERY
quote on this update fits
my mood in some way or another,
EXACTLY.
you steal my heart and curse under your breath but the one thing that i can most willing prove that when you are gone, i'll be fine without you
and i wonder if you wonder,
or did your stars finally explode?
did the thunder pull you underneath the haze?
i'm amazed,
than i let go.
you float like a feather
in a beautiful world
i wish i was special
you're so very' special
i want to touch the stars
and have someone beside me
who's willing to burn their hand too.
sunbeam, stop tugging me
pull that door shut quietly.
darling what are you doing?
we don't have time for this.
i should live my life
without always wanting you,
but it's hard to see the sky through the clouds
when it's raining,
it all comes down to the love that was never really given
i should have taken more time to find the truth.
even though you disapate with no goodbye
i see you almost everywhere,
your everywhere,
i'm haunted and all i see is you
i'm haunted and all i need is you,
there is no one else except for you.
i got you
i got you
and i'll always have you
“Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forgive life, to be at peace.”
here we're nothin more than
fools
and whores
and sad highs,
through the summer sand,
we're living in a wasteland.
i know i'm lazy with the little things
i mean, i never held a door
but i still loved you more than anyone
since or before.
i want to feel your body next to mine.
the air you breath to fill my lungs.
nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
he whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for sex
do you think that if clouds were really fluffy,
there would be less airplane crashes?
and do you think that if god was always with us,
we wouldn't have to fight all the time?
and do you think that if people really had the best intentions,
relationships would last longer?
and if all you needed was love,
why do people want money so badly?
and do you ever wonder
that if the things people tell us were true in our lives,
we would turn out different?
because i do.
i honestly do.
welcome to the revolution.
it's time for the weak to find retribution.
it's time for the lost to find a home.
it's time for believers to speak
into a microphone and sing.
bought myself a quick cheap ticket,
looking for a brand new scene.
gotta get the hell out of Hollywood,
cause everything is Halloween.
hit the town in brass knuckles,
make all the good people stare.
i hope i don't end up in jail,
but then again,
i don't really care.
we'll do some drugs.
we'll fall in love
and get fucked up
while the world just shrugs.
i might be a fool,
you might be one too.
maybe we're all that we needed.
two wrongs don't make a right,
but i don't care tonight.
maybe we're all that we needed.
i intentionally wrote it out
to be an illegible mess.
you wanted me to write you a letter
but i'd rather lose your address
and forget that we'd ever met
and what did or did not occur
catching signals that sound in the dark
we will take off our clothes
and i'll be placing fingers through
the notches in your spine.
i'm reaching for the phone to call at 7:03,
and on your machine
i slur a plea for you to come home.
i know it's too late.
i should have given you a reason to stay.
look at what you made me do
you're the reason why
i drink, swear, steal and lie
can i come home with you
yes, i'll do anything
in this god almighty world
if you just let me come home with you
can’t you see this is all bullshit?
fighting for freedom with blood and iron,
in the name of world’s happiness,
in the name of world’s establishment.
i don't know if your wings are real
but i've never seen you without them,
and i follow you everywhere.
and i know your life’s not useless
and if there’s some way,
i’d prove it.
"It isn't the pollution that's harming the environment.
It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
if you can't hold yourself together, why should i hold you now?
let's close our eyes,
and we'll talk in the morning
when we're able to feel
the true weight of our words
and why we're both here.
oh, painted skies.
ive seem so many that cant even
compare to your ocean blue eyes.
i collect sunsets in the palm of my hand.
you stomp out the moonlight,
every chance you get.
one day you're gonna want them back.
when you do i'll turn my head.
you're the good luck for my bad ideas.
i'm the covers on your bed.
you're my dreams when i can't sleep.
and i thank you for that.
and we can laugh all we want,
i know it's your favorite.
and i'll stare at you all i can,
'cause you,
you're my favorite.
hey, i think you're cute would you like to be my new best friend? we can talk for hours or just lay in bed
won't you walk with me to the park up the road?
i told you that i'd be right back
you said that "i'll be the judge of that
'cause see boys they have a tendency
of running from me
as fast as they can.
i don't know why"
you should walk with me. feel free to hold my hand. feel free to kiss me on the cheek even though i'd prefer the lips
hey i think you're groovy would you wanna see a movie with me? we can sit in uncomfortable seats and eventually i'll get the nerve up to put my arm around you can i put my arms around you? 'cause i'd sure like to
you said
"hey kid there's nothing for you up in them clouds.
so why do stare and sing so loud?"
i don't know,
but one day that sky's gonna fall down,
and i'll be just fine.
i'll be singing at it's side.
if the world was gonna end
it might as well be tonight.
i walked you home,
you smiled the whole way.
when we got to your doorstep
you said goodbye,
for good
here's to summing up the last three years
in the words of a song
here's to your thoughts
being whispered in my ear all day
here's to the plaid blankets
you used to lay on all the time
here's to "us" being referred to
in the past tense
you got a funny way of saying i love you
you got a pretty smile you should use it more often
you got a pair of eyes i like to look at
you got a beautiful voice i like to listen to
you sing in the morning on our way to school
i wanna lay forever with you in the sunshine kinda like the stars above do with the moonlight you can pretend all you want to but the truth is darling i love you yeah it's true i can't get you out of my mind but i really don't mind
why don't we stay up all night
just to watch the sunrise
why don't we say we're fine
just to stay alive
why don't we forget everything
for this moment
why don't we wake up in the morning
side by side,
eye to eye,
you and me.
