Rina's entertainment notebook.

i'm so scared for the day
that we break up
i don't want it to happen
because even now
everything i see, reminds me of you

GIRL: i don't know if i'll ever get over you.
BOY: well that doesn't matter because
i'll never give you the opportunity to.
i'm always going to be here.

like all of the sudden I didn't
fit in anywhere. not at school,
not at home.. and every time
I turned around, another person
I'd known forever felt like a
stranger to me. even I felt like
a stranger to me.

I sat there and stared at you.
I just couldn't understand how such an amazing person could be in my life.
And then all of a sudden I got extremely scared.
You kissed me, and told me not to worry, there was no way you'd ever leave me.
I felt a sense of comfort. I believed you. That is, until you left.

I always hoped for so much better for us.
I thought that just because you were older...didn't mean I couldn't have you. I was wrong.
I led myself on and made myself believe that you really meant is when you said you cared.
So, now you're leaving and my heart is breaking. But I know if I just hang on...everything will be okay.
And that's the one thing you have given me...strength.
So even if you never really cared about me...thank you for making me strong

Don't give me choices cause I can't decide
My mind is soaked in words

You hurt me by ignoring me
You hurt me with your smile of confusion.
You hurt me by telling me you loved me,
when you really didn't.
You hurt me by lying & telling me it's the truth.
You hurt me by staring at me like you care
& then closing your eyes as if I'm not there.
You hurt me by saying 'hi' & 'bye'
& then talking about me, behind my back.
You hurt me by telling me there was no one else
&, then, I saw you with another.
You hurt me.

In love we all take risks, we all fall down,
but you should never be scared to go a little further
or a little crazier, cause in the end, the sweetest love
is the one that made you lose control..

You can't live your life for other people.
You've got to do what's right for you,
even if it hurts some people you love..

You've got to accept the fact that life isn't a fairy tale,
things aren't always happily ever after. Things like magic wishes,
Prince Charming's & true love don't happen in real life. Magic wishes come from money,
Prince Charming's a shallow idiot with a bad haircut & overpriced clothes.
& true love? Ha, true love is one-sided, Ace.
You love her, she loves someone else.
She loves you, you love someone else.
Never quite works out does it?
So you end up with some actor pretending to be your true love.
Real considerate of someone to let you know reality was like that before being thrown into it.
"If you wish, it'll happen."
Well, wish in one hand & crap in the other & see which one fills up faster.
Welcome to reality. Enjoy your stay.

I pity him cause I get to walk away & be me,
& he has to stay him, you know? &
who wants to be him when you could be me?
I'm smart, I'm funny, I am "it." I was the magic.
The abracadabra. I was the "poof" in the relationship.

It's not until you stop chasing them,
that they will stop running.

& I will love him no matter what you say.
You're simply too immature to understand that
love does stretch for miles & miles. So you just be an
immature little kid looking for love in all the wrong places,
& I will be content with mine right where it is..
not all those miles away, but in my heart,
& in his heart, where distance does not matter.

i'm haunted by your face,
and the memory of your kisses.
i remember never feeling so alive.

And along the side I wrote,
"Getting over a three leaf clover,
that I thought was four."

singers smoke it
players of instrument, too
legalize it, yeah, yeah
that's the best thing you can do

let's make them remember us.

And I can't wait to write you a letter for
everyday that I can not bear. Fill these
moments with words like forever, but you
got to swear, don't forget to remember me.

WELL AREN'T YOU ORIGINAL?
an entire generation of kids who dont belong.
constantly crying because something is wrong.
driving around in your brand new car, you listen to your modern music,
go ahead & whine along. you're so busy being different you don't realize,
you're all signing the same song.

Hey, let's cross the sea and get some culture.
Red wine with every meal and absinthe after dinner.
We'd look good side by side
walking back to the hotel.

Here's to the starry nights and careless freedom,
to glowing smiles and flushed cheeks
of laughter that heals you deep inside.

The radio plays a love song.
I smash my fist right through the dial.
Here's to the broken hearted.
A generation born in denial.

New Years Eve came, but nothing
had changed, all the problems just
got worse, we sat in silence. no routine
science could heal the sickness we
rehearse. & if im talking, my words
are mocking the deaf ears they have fallen on.

some friends are like pennies
.... twofaced and worthless

when you think the world has turned its back on you,
take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

and if it makes a difference .. there isn`t
one day that you are not on » my mind ?

Love makes you do crazy things, insane
things, things in a million years you wouldn't
see yourself doing, but there you are doing them.

don'tlookatmelikethat.
i don't feel like falling for you all over again
i can't afford the heartbreak

When you're left with only a bullet,
I'll bring the trigger & the promise to pull it

As I lay there in your arms, I drew the letters
I love you on your back thinking you weren’t
paying attention` .. then you looked at me & ‘
___ said I love you too

I'm starting
to notice myself
thinking about u
more and more.

But there’s just something about him that made me like him ever since the day I met him.
There was something about him that made me go absolutely crazy for him.

If you can break up and still be
friends then you were either never
in love..or you still are.

Of course we'll meet new people and fall in love again.
Of course we're gonna hate each other and seek
out to hurt each other but we'll always have a history
that won't let us forget about each other no matter how much we want to.

people say hate is a strong word. well,
so is love. but people throw it around like
it`s nothing.. *

You say I'm always with different guys,
&& yeah I admit It's true.
But I'd give all that up,
If you'd say I could be with you.

Maybe no one else saw how wonderful you were,
but that's okay, because their blindness
allowed me to get to you.

All I want Is to be the girl falling
asleep In a boys arms && not caring
about anything else In the world,
except how I feel at that moment
while Im with him.

Throughout life you will meet on
person who Is unlike any other.
This person Is the one you could forever
talk to. They understand you In a
way that no one else does or ever
could. This person Is your soul mate
&& best friend. Dont ((ever)) let him go

Girl: If the end of the world comes,
what will be that last thing you'd want to do?
Boy: Kiss you.

The only thing better than the kiss itself,
Is the moment right before it when the`
look In his eyes leaves you breathless.

it's amazing how one day you're
my best friend, just hanging
out and then the next day
you're kissing me good night.

A best friend is someone who screams to you in the hallways saying "I love you",
not caring if anyone thinks you're a lesbian, only caring that you hear them everytime.

life's a canvas as words are the paint
&& the brushes humanity's given are the poets and the saints

love is something you can't describe;;
like the look of a rose, the smell of rain,
or the feeling of forever.

life isn't a destination - it's a journey.
we all come upon unexpected curves and turning points -
everything that happens to us shapes who we are becoming,
and in the adventure of each day, we discover the important things in life
and why they are important.

if there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this
- when there's something you really want, fight for it,
don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems.
and when you've lost hope,
ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot.
because the best things in life, they don't come free

this might sound crazy but i actually
like when he chooses to sit with friends
because secretly i know hes staring at me.

I've had days where I was on the
brink of crying & everything was just
going wrong & then he'd just appear &
suddenly things didn't really seem so bad
after all. He always shows up when I
need him to, without even knowing it.

She builds high walls around her
heart cause she knows no one can
climb that high. That way, when
no one else is able to reach the top,
which is what she knows is going to
happen, she won't be disappointed.

The biggest mistake you can make
is to drift apart from someone who
you once had the time of your life with.
I want to be with you. I just want to be with
you. If I could hold your hand for the rest
of my life, I would never be scared again.
I want to hold you tight & I want to tell you
every second how much you mean to me,
because no one has ever meant more.
I want to be able to help you
& make you smile; just let me
make you smile.

and finally when everything you
want is basically handed to you, it's
almost as if you were afraid to take it.

Why be capable of feelings if we're not to have them?
Why long for things if they're not meant to be ours?

It's too late to talk to you
but it's still too early to say goodbye.
I just want you to know that wherever you are,
you're still on my mind.
It's never easy to understand why memories hold our hands but people let go

Somewhere, deep in your heart,
there is someone you are dying to forget
but also living to remember.

I know he stole my heart,
but now I'm starting to wonder :
Did I let myself fall for him
just to forget about you?

the sad part of letting go
is knowing that it may never
come back

no matter how much time
goes by you'll never forget
the first time he looked at you

i know things are different now
i understand we'll never be the same as they once were
but just know that i'll always have a place for you
in my heart

if one's born into battle
& doesnt know any other kind of life,
how could the battle be so bad,
when its all you've known, its all you've had

He asked me if I was alright.
I looked at him, speechless.
"Yeah" I said. Then I thought
about it, and I looked into his eyes
as mine filled with tears. "No."

It's eating at me like cancer
I need to know the answer,
its a simple yes or no
should i love you or let you go?

we spent our nights on the sidewalks
streetlights and stop signs held our destiny
we peeled out through the intersection
hoping to feel a little more free
but kids like us arent lucky enough
yeah, we will never get out of this town

Here's to the starry nights and careless freedom,
to glowing smiles and flushed cheeks
of laughter that heals you deep inside.

More people would learn from their mistakes
if they weren't so busy denying them.

Worry is a total waste of time. It doesn't change anything.
All it does is mess up your mind and steal your happiness.

She was sad but refused to cry...
she wont open up
she wont let anyone in.

He makes my smile ten times bigger
&& my laugh ten times louder
&& i couldn't ask for anything more.

I'll be living off your phone calls
and your letters and your postcards,
every single word is like a secret wish
come true. Well, who cares if we're
apart for the big days, its the small ones
that made me fall in love with you

&& just like every other night...
I looked up at the stars...
and wasted another wish on you.

&& turn up the volume and
we can sing like superstars and
dance like we're famous all because...
that's just how we are.

lied to him, straight to his face. i couldnt bare to
tell him that he is the only thing i need and that i
love him with all of my heart.

the best way to gain acceptance,
is to accept yourself first.

we spend our whole lives searching for all the
thing's we think we want, never really knowing
what we really have.

take no one for granted because
the truth is, no one waits forever.

you say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock.
i don't believe any of it

the sun don't shine 'round here no more
and i know it won't be long
i hope i see you out tonight
and i hope we get it on.

but maybe i've got nothing to lose;
just tell me you are mine, and how
i am better with you*

let’s get out of this country.
i’ll admit i am bored with me.
i drowned my sorrows
and slept around.
when not in body at least in mind.
we’ll find a cathedral city,
you can convince me i am pretty.

its not really sex.
and its not really drugs.
its the people in this society,
that are the source of the
problems in this world.

late nights won’t do me justice
‘cause when i drink
i just get so damn depressed
and it’s it’s not like i ain’t trying to get over you
it’s just hard to look at all the seasons
pass me over too.

old shower when you get home.

your 1st day of kindergarten was scary
the last day of middle school made you cry
and the end of highschool will blow your mind
it's all the memories in between
we will remember & cherish.

we lied, we
can't go on.

You have beautiful, beautiful eyes.
So bright and alive and enchanting.
I want to be with you all of the time.

Will you come back to me?
That's all I need to know.

Tell me my dreams are real & you exist.
Tell me my nightmares are fake & you'll be there.

And everyday i'm losing hope.
And each minute that passes by
gives me another reason to give up.

You had me at "Hello."

You have always been the habit she could never
break. the habit she never really wants to break.

I try and listen, but baby;
you're so out of tune.

Please. All I'm asking is for someone
to sweep me off my feet.

"if its love," she said //
"then we're gonna have to think about the consequences"
&she cant stop shaking, and I can't stop touching her..

& we can laugh all we want, I know it's your favorite.
& I'll stare at you all I can, 'cause you, you're my favorite.

We're not sleeping & I'm not breathing. If this means anything at all,
don't let me leave anymore.

We keep waiting.
Waiting on the world to change.

We swam a sea of pretty sights
and chandelier skies. I swore I could
feel you breathe. It was all so real to me.

Let's disappear, gotta jet out of here.
Feel the wind across our face.
We'll have some fun, gonna dance on the run.
It's a perfect day to break away.
It don't matter what we do, as long as i'm with you.

Because we are what we are
& sometimes that's not enough.

Love is when you take away the
feeling, the passion, and the romance
in the relationship and you find out
that you still care for the person.

on the outside, you know you're not that same
naive kid anymore. you've been through too
much lately. but deep down, at your core, there
will always be a part of you that rejects reality,
that is eternally hopeful.

At some point I have to stop blaming
everything but me, and pretending
that I know what love's supposed to be.

Baby, there's something about you
that I can hold on to.
I'm going to hold on to that.

Say the first thing that comes
into your head when you see me.
If it looks like it works and
it feels like it works, then it works.

I'm the new berlin wall. Just go ahead.
Try and break me down.

Because we are what we are
& sometimes that's not enough.

If heartaches brought fame
in love's crazy game,
I'd be a legend in my time.

I've acquired my taste
to a well made mistake.

& you might just be
what i need.

&& all I wanna know is
do you still lay awake at
night and think about me?

What hurts the most, is being so close,
and having so much to say,
&& watching you walk away....

we're not the i n n o c e n t
girls nextdoor. we're the loud bitches down the street

Are you a heartbreaker?
Maybe you want me for the ride
What if I'm fallin' for a heartbreaker?
And everything is just a lie…

a song, can take you back
instantly * to a moment, a
place, or even a person. no
matter what else has changed
in youu or the world, that
one song stays the same, just
like that moment...

Give me a revolver.
Let me shoot those pretty little face of yours.
[[ by me ]]

I wish you would give me a night or two...
Oh baby the things i'd do to you.

she's done dropping hints.
so go and figure it out yourself, pretty boy.

Heavens not a place that you go when you die,
its that moment in life, when you
actually feel alive
-- So live for the moment –

come on baby, you and me,
lets cause a teenage love scene.

There’s nothing you can do or say
You’re gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go.

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown.

You put those city lights to shame
with those beautiful eyes of yours.

guess it 's always been that way -- wanting to be loved..
to find someone that makes your heart ache in a good way.

so roll our film baby.
this is another one of our,
romantic scenes.
so act like you love me.

They say before you die
Your whole life flashes before you ;;
-- make it worth watching –

cheers to another awkward moment.
things will never be the same.

We're both such magnificent liars.
So crush me, baby,
I'm all ears.

baby, i want the whole world to see,
just how good your love looks on me.

she's addicted to the song lyrics
that spill her heart out for him.

she randomly smiles because shes thinking of you

Whoever said
"What you don't know can't hurt you"
was a complete & total moron.
Cause..for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

trust is like virginity you lose
it once & you never get it back.

Before you say you hate someone, think, if they died, would you care?

Today I am over you, but tomorrow
you'll probably do something like smile
at me, and then I fall in love with you
all over again.

i`d never make a [promise] . . i don`t
intend to keep. so when i say forever, I mean it baby

it is impossible to look into your eyes
and tell you i dont love you anymore?

We're the type of people who
would get hit by a parked car. =) *

people always ask me,"are you a lover or a fighter?"
i answer,"both"
because i fight for love.

being around you
makes me feel like for once in my life
i don't have to try to be happy
it just happens :]

there's always a wild side to an innocent face ;)

there's always something you'll always remember about your past that'll keep you hanging on.

there's a time and place for everything.
there's a reason why certain people meet.
and there's a destination for everyone.

sing from the heart
dream from the soul
smile to the stars
&& love like you'll never let go.

the weak are cruel. the strong have no need to be.

maybe we hate each other because
we can't face the fact that we're still in love.

being perfect may be okay with barbie
but remember.
she ended up with ken;;
a guy with no dick

eventually;;one of two things will happen.
he'll finally realize you were worth it
or you'll finally realize that he wasn't.

when a guy calls you hot, he's looking at your body
when he calls you pretty, he's looking at your face
but when he calls you beautiful
he's looking at your heart

Being together is more than just making out...
It's about understanding the other person...
Being there for them...
Talking for hours...
Making each other's dreams come true...
Being in love....
& not needing anything to keep it worth while...

people don't change.they just become
more of what they really are.

i'm not the type of girl that would get up and leave you
i would never mislead you
because unlike other girls
i love you.

he's my best friend..
ya know the kind where at the end of the day i love to come home and talk to him on the phone,
the kind where i long for the weekend so i can see him.
he's more than my best friend, he's my world.

true love is compassion
spoken through patience
seen through trust
lives in the essence of happiness.

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did.

The only reason people hold onto
memories so tight is because memories
are the only things that dont
change when everything else does.

dont waste your life regretting all your wrongs..
know that in the end you`ll get what your heart has always longed...
try not to risk it all... dont stumble and dont fall...
take the time to read the writings on the wall...
hold your head up high and dont be afraid to say goodbye...
stay true and be you..do everything there is to do...
live life to its fullest and never ever look back...
there is a reason for the future and a reason for the past....
love till it hurts and laugh till u cry and when your life flashes before you..
make it worth while...
be happy for what you have done...
and be happy for what you have over come..
and most of all, always, be proud of what you have become.

all she really wants
is someone who will catch her when she falls
someone to realize what she's worth
& hold her hand for no reason at all.
someone who will sit with her under the stars
& not want anything more than to look into her eyes
while preaching to her how
she's the one he's been waiting for.

when you try your best
but you don't succeed.
when you get what you want
but not what you need.
when you feel so tired
but you cannot sleep.
stuck in reverse...

Sometimes letting go means forgiving him and moving on.

Maybe the reason I'm still mad at you is because you left me.
Left me standing there without a care in the world.
Like it was just that easy to walk away from "us".
Did I mean anything to you?
Or was I an only temporary girlfriend till you got the one you wanted?
I guess I'll never know.

people think falling in love means making themselves
whole. but that can't be it. I think you're whole before
you begin. and love fractures you and cracks you open.
he was something you had never known before. a
feeling unlike any other. you could either get rid of it,
or take it in through self-distortion. and that's what you
did and it drove you mad.

what is there to fear in love? love is the
very reason we live. fearing love is like
being afraid of breathing, it's not something
to be scared of, it's something so natural
that no one can resist.

maybe who we are isn't so much about what
we do, but rather what we're capable of when
we least expect it.