Rina's entertainment notebook.

We could close the curtains
Pretend like there's no world outside
And we could pretend that all the time

We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
Were living in a den of thieves
And it's contagious

I read you and God I'm good at it I'm so spot on
Chord shapes in air go press that dissonance if you dare

I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own
Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real

Be my Romeo
Please be my voice in this world
I can't sing the songs that you sing
I can't find the gorgeous words

In our bed, in your place
Lay a note
It read:
Baby your love
it just ain't good enough
I found sunlight six hours away
You watered me down 'til I drifted abound
Somewhere far from your shade

No thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
I don't have to pay for this shit
I couldn't afford chemo like I couldn't afford a limo
and on any given day I'd rather ride a limousine

And besides this shit is making me tired
it's making me tired
You know I plan to retire some day,
and I'm-a gonna go out in style

Sophie only wants to listen to radio BBC
Michael sat on my knees and whispered to me
All about the meanies
Jacqueline was being such a big girl
with her cup of tea looking out of the window
And Barbara
She looks just like my mom
Oh my god, Barbara
She looks so much like my mom

A wise man once told me he said,
"When music is the one thing that surrounds you.
You feel no pain."

No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned

you act like we never had anything.
which is insane, because we had everything.
I don't know how you can ignore the world.


Take me to a hotel room
And tie me to the bed of my mistakes
Kiss me like I paid for this
Please don't stop till you've raped all my faith


sit down, please make yourself comfortable.
i might need some time to dance around what
i need to say, i love you to death, i think
i need a break.


don't forget to kill yourself.
it's the most important part
in this romeo and juliet romance.


'm going to spend my nights either sleepless, or dreaming of you.
who wants a life of lost adolescence,
filled with regrets and antidepressants?
i have said it before, and you know that i meant it.
you're all i ever want to know, and i'm not going to let that go.


i saw you yesterday. we shared a smile
and went our separate ways. all those
nights we shared were just us killing time


please don't be upset at this portrait
that i paint. it may be a little biased,
but at least i spelled your name right.


catch me as i'm falling.
you're all i really need now.


Now the sky is turning blue, the stars disappear one by one as the daylight is nearer.
And yes, you're in my head, but that doesn't make you here.


I waited for a bus to separate the both of us
and take me off far away from you.
cause my feelings never change a bit,
I always feel like shit.


it was time to go home,
to go home without each other.
i said i love you, he said the same.
i said call me when you miss me,
he smiled and kissed me.
i walked towards my car,
and my phone rang.

"I know a girl from a lonely street cold as ice cream, but still as sweet."
-Blondie

The miles of air & road & land that seperate me from all my plans. We're having fun, but something tells me I miss someone.

"We sat in the night with my hands cuffed at my side. I looked at your life & your style. I wanted nothing more."
-Blondie

& She kissed as if she alone could forget the signature of the sun.

"The tide is high, but I'm holding on. I'm gonna be your number one."
-Blondie

He said "You make my organs slosh around loose." & I blushed, flattered when I should have been calling nine-one-one.

"I think all the time how I'm going to perpetrate love with you."
-Blondie

So innocent & still. You lay against your truck's windows. Replaying whta looks to me as karma taking it's last blow.

"All I want is 20/20 vision. A total portrait with no omissions. All I want is a vision of you."
-Blondie

They say distance makes the heart grow fonder... but it sure makes the rest of me feel colder.

"In between, what I find is pleasing & I'm feeling fine, love is so confusing there's no peace of mind. If I fear I'm losing you it's just no good. You're teasing like you do."
-Blondie

here comes the sadness that i miss so much. that lonely aching comes from every touch. i've grown accustomed to the grays & blacks, because they're always coming back. sit down for supper, you won't dine with me or can't you handle seeing all i see. i've grown colorblind to cease my bitching & i've grown to love the pain. & i move to slow & i think too fast & the first rainbow i see will be teh last. here comes a boring song with thoughtless rhyme. i know you're sick of me so tell me here because you could have been the one to make it all disappear.

"one way or another, i wanna get ya, i'll get ya, i'll get ya get ya get ya get ya."
-Blondie

i wish that i could chill with you tonight. stop the wrories that keep forming in my head. i've got ants in my pants unelss it's you in them instead.

"You wander through my sleeping mind. Reading thoughts I've left behind."
-Blondie

I can't live without you. Let's disco the night away.

"Nothing is real but hte girl. Nothing is real but her."
-Blondie

I may be confused about a lot of things, but I know that hte only time I'm truly happy is when I'm thinking of You.

"If you'll forgive my ferocity, I won't forget your sweetness."
-Blondie

It's when you shed tears. Yet you still care. It's when you're ignored but yet you still long. It's when he begins to love another yet you still smile & say "I'm happy for you."

I'm a multicellular individual. You're way out of proportion!"
-Blondie

I only wish that I could hate you.

"Love is what we hunger for, the appetite is strong."
-Blondie

& Now that summer's gone & all we're left with are hte memories... Are you still going to love me? Are you still going to love me like you did on those hot July nights... Under the stars holding me tight... Please tell me... Please... I'll do anything... Just stay.

"I"m like a happy dog who's been alone too long."
-Blondie

I dare you to forget those marks you left on my neck from those ngihts when we were both found at our best.

"We believe in love. we believe in little things like heaven up above & seven it's a lucky number."
-Blondie

I don't get high, but sometimes I wish I did. That way, when I messed up in life I woudl have an excuse. But right now there's no rehab for stupidity.

"He don't comb his hair like he did before. He don't wear those dirty black boots no more."
-Blondie

I'm just a stupid fuck with brilliant luck & soemtimes a bright idea. So shower me with a chorus of compliments & verse I don't deserve. I might run but I"ll never hide.

If I had a dollar bill for every time I've been wrong
I'd be a self-made millionaire, and you'd still be gone


can't you see the wall you built for me
can't you see the wall you built for me


i'm leaving town tonight
and i want to hear something from you,
anything from you


What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you
What will it take to make you understand that I
I'm not lying when I say I need you


I wish I had the nerve to tell you that I'm a wreck
But what really did you expect?
You never listened to what I said to you


Like the way that your eyes
Travel to the floor when you tell a lie...
Your eyes disguise, your ways and severed ties
Like right now



Every time you go to sleep at night
I wonder what you hide behind closed eyes
What else could you be keeping from me?


And every time I think of him it makes me sick
And I don't wanna know just what happened then
In the van right in front of my house
That's where you sold me out
You didn't have a clue


So hold me close but don't get too comfortable
'cause this might be the last time you hear my voice


i'm sorry for every apology
but you'll never know how much you mean to me


i miss the way you make me feel so cold and alone

Whatever happened to us, dear? Just come now, & follow me into the night, we'lll take a stroll, & we'll kiss tenderly. Oh, no, this isn't love, it's good-bye.

"She draws your eyes from all the things that have made you numb & makes you feel."-
-Copeland

Embers, we're burning bridges down. Envelopes stuffed with feelings found. To write this down as means to reconcicle.

"You'll say, 'Wake now, Prince. There's a brilliant sky above & a jealous moon in love & htey're starved for our attention.'"-
-Copeland

Paint me beautiful. A scene so memorable. It's etched across my heart.

"& I'm sure that I don't understand how I found a love so pure."-
-Copeland

This basement's a coffin. I'm buried alive. I'll die in here just to be safe. I'll die in here just to be safe. Cause you're gone. I get nothing & you're off with barely a sigh. I never said "good-bye."

"Have faith that when you call my name I'll be there."-
-Copeland

With a jaw made of glass & a mouth full of blood. Break it baby & call it love.

"I miss the way you sing low, so I can't hear your voice over the radio in my car, but you knew every word they sang."-
-Copeland

They're sharing a drink they call loneliness, but it's better than drinking alone.

"Who just threw your heart away this time? & When you're crying on your bed does he help keep you alive?"-
-Copeland

As for me, the song is halfway over & I am at the edge of the dance floor, like a stone at the edge of the sea, waiting for my rough edges to be smoothed into something wroth touching, & I tell myslef that one day someoen will come for me & until then. I'll wait.

"The distance rips us farther & farther & farther away."-
-Copeland

I've got a big, fat, fucking bone to pick with you, my darling. In case you haven't heard I'm sick & tired of trying. I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you, plugged in & ready to fall.

"It's a glorious day & my lonely heart is tired again. & I am starved for her attention."
-Copeland

& This sunny city life is held in empty hands, the Pacific is looking so wonderful tonight, with a cinderblock & a rope tied to my ankle, it's closer than this twelve pack of medicine impairing the thought to the life i'm living in.

"It was your 'hello' that kept me hanging on every world & your 'good-bye' that keeps me listening."
-Copeland

We live our lives inside the lines, but when love's involved the lines start to become blurred.

"You know I won't mind if you monopolize all of my time. I won't say a thing at all I won't say a word no."
-Copeland

I'd rather spend one minute holding you than the rest of my life knowing I never could.

"& I'll sing songs to help me stay up all night long cause I don't want to go to sleep & I'll sing songs & hope you're listening carefully & know exactly what I mean."
-Copeland

That guy didn't know you. Because if he did, he would have never walked away.

"You've got an extra special heart. A perfect light that shines through. & It seems the hardest part is shining back at you."
-Copeland

I pulled out that picture of you yesterday, the one you don't really like, I remembered everything about you, your favorite color, your favorite song, what you wanted to be when you get older, & the songs that reminds you of us. Then I realized, I was crying the whole time, & I accidentally ruined teh picture of you. I guess that's okay. Becaus eyou never likedi t anyways.

"& You know when it rains in this town I get washed away without a sound. So pin my wings down." -
-Copeland